Childhood Fantasies

You know when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that one day prince charming would carry you away to a wonderful castle on a hill where it's just you two where nothing matters anymore? You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, Easter Bunny, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true. What if that fairy tale never comes true how does someone deal with the pain of losing that fairy tale that meant the most to them? Do you just ride it out and hope for a miracle to make it go away on its own and hope that wound that caused it heals? There are no easy answers, solutions, or guidelines, you just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed if it's by friends or going out all night or a regretful hook up or work it is managed for those short few hours of your life, until you come home and the fairy tale you once believed in still hasn't come true and you still aren't truly happy. Sometimes pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way above the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more........Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.....UGH!!!!!!.........Bodhi Tree bookstore sounds nice......no or maybe....... an overpriced psychic who will tell me what I want to hear sounds nice