For the past two-ish months I have been feeling dead inside. No matter what I do, I have this empty feeling following me, a shadow that won't go away.It's like I am sleep walking through life and I can't be woken up, numb. I feel like a dead ghost walking that's been over dosed with electric shock therapy. I have done things that I have been waiting very patiently to do just to come to the realization that it felt empty, as if it never even happened. I feel like I have a very empty heart without my best friend. I miss my best friend. My best friend is like no elses best friend. My best friend and I have built a friendship that sooooo many people wish for, yet so few get. My best friend and I built a friendship on pure genuine trust, honesty, and communication, the three pillars which are needed to form a lasting relationship. We were a perfect balance. My weaknesses were his strengths and my strengths were his weaknesses. We were there to encourage one another when no one else would. I found pure joy in watching him succeed and reach his goals. We genuinely cared and wanted the best for one another not ever expecting anything in return, unlike others. We had a connection that was in tune with our souls. We finished each others sentences and understood what the other was feeling when no one else could. My best friend was the only person who I could truly let me wall down around and be my stubborn self. He knew the words to my heart when I had forgotten them. I was once told that everyone walks around with a half soul, the other half is missing until you find the right person who makes you feel whole, your soul mate. He is my better half, the half of my soul that was missing, my soul mate. The day my best friend said goodbye to me I have never in my life cried as much or as hard as I did on December 29-2009. There was an odd feeling in my chest, a feeling that I never felt before. The part of me that was always filled, suddenly went empty. It was a physical emptiness, vacant feeling in my chest, in my soul. At that point a great cold chill came over my body, and I came to the realization that it was my best friends sweet measure of his soul that added so much happiness to my existence. I miss my best friend and the closeness we shared through our friendship. I know that he is a true blessing that has touched my life and inspired me to become a better person and to be the person I am today. Anyone who gets to meet this great soul, treat him well because after all he is my best friend and true blessing and gift to enter your life and if you hurt him I WILL come after you. I will always love him, care for him, and want the best for him.
